satisfaction

despite...

... feeling thirsty all day...
... being called obstinate...
... feeling like a complainer with a bad attitude...
... being confronted with my issues with authority...
... wondering why, why, why am i like this...
... feeling tired and not sleeping enough...
... having cold feet and questioning oh so many choices...
... being yelled at by teenagers and feeling fearful of being hit by errant firecrackers...
... ordering pizza for dinner...
... wanting what I do not have and having what I do not want...
... losing a battle with the cd burner...
... being forced to remember again and again...
... choosing not to call again and again...
... losing the necessary phone number...
... wishing on a falling star that turned out to be plane headed elsewhere...
... feeling trapped in the basement and like i was abandoning my babies...
... smelling the onion-ey tang of the Scared Sweat emanating from my air-pits...
... choosing to say air-pits instead of arm-pits...
... realizing that i was sitting in for two men at opposite sides of the cycle of life and death...
... not eating enough vegetables...
... not having my dishes done...
... wanting to drink and smoke and do drugs all day long......

despite all this I got a lot done today and feel generally good, if just a tad dehydrated.